i'm feeling just a little overwhelmed with gratitude today.
i'm SO glad i decided to come back to idaho.
i was driving home from my interview today in st. anthony
and i was thinking back to last year,
and as i always say, it was such a tough year!
but i'm so glad that i put those feelings aside
because i would have missed all this.
i really would have missed ALL OF THIS.
in just the month that i've been here,
i have been so blessed.
i'm so grateful for my apartment that is just ours.
for the fact my best friend and biggest life saver ever
lives right beneath me.
and i would never have met rachael, our roomie.
we all have SO much fun and we work together as a unit
if that makes any sense.
it's almost like instead of a new roommate or friend,
we got another sister!
with all our stupid jokes and random conversations and trash kicking gym trips.
i would have missed all this.
and for the dumbest reason.
i was trying to cop out decision to move to the place that was the easiest to live.
and in the back of my mind i wanted to be close to someone that i missed truly in hopes that maybe things would work out again.
i couldn't admit it then,
but i realize now that it was a small part of my decision.
but definitely not all of it by any means.
just so that is clear...
good thing i changed my mind tho.
i'm SO glad i did.
everyday i wake up and just have another confirmation that this is where i need to be.
and i am so lucky that my favorite religion teacher ever,
which is my book of mormon teacher from last year,
is my institute teacher for the year.
i am going to look forward to every thursday night.
and now more than ever i know that
if i truly can say that i am doing all that i KNOW i should be doing,
and living all the things i know that are right,
and strive to be the very type of person that i desire in my future,
that things are going to be alright.
and they are alright.
for the first time in a long time i feel so happy and so content with everything in my life.
and i'm not going to give that up for anything or anyone.
and all i can do is take all the things from last year and learn good things from them.
i know i'm here for myself, and i know that i'm here for trisha, and i know i'm here for my sister and rachael.
and i know i'm here because i feel it with everything that i am supposed to be back at byu-idaho,
and so i'm going to do all i can to be back in a position to go back there eventually.
and mostly i know i'm here to meet the person i'm supposed to spend the rest of my eternity with.
i feel it with ever fiber in my body.
and i don't know how many people i'll meet and date before i get to him,
but i know he's here.
or that he will be.
i know it.
i've been given this second chance at life to figure out my place in life,
my meaning in life,
the direction i want to take,
and all the right people to help me along with making those decisions.
and i know as i move forward everyday,
i am just one step closer to that light at the end of the tunnel.
i love this feeling.
yay me.
i am so glad i read all the right signs.
it seriously took A LOT of divine intervention because i am so dang stubborn,
but this time i got it right.
and i am SO glad i did.
man i love life.
and i love this feeling.
and i can't wait for all that life has in store for me at this point.
good things and bad things alike.
i made the right decision for once.
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